Don't congratulate me yet :)
Abbey Lee Kershaw photographed by Marcin Tyszka
It's not that I don't like getting older, but after reaching certain age, I think the birthday buzz is losing a bit of its attraction. I am still excited about the celebration, wishes from the loved ones, the gifts (!!), the feeling of being important for the day. But it is no longer as exciting as ten years ago. When adding 1 year to ur tens, made you more of a "woman", made you eligible to go on a date, made you able to drive dad's car, etc. The excitement was great, although it's actually only one day difference, as in one day you're 16, and the next day you're 17. I still can remember how excited I was turning 17.
Well, turning 25 makes me feel..grown-up. I feel like more responsibilities are added to me. I'm 25 and should be able to take care of myself, think sensible, make my own money, find myself a husband (this is what my grandma always reminds me, SERIOUSLY, during this year, "The clock will not stop ticking for you, you know that, right dear?").
Emma Booth shot by Nicole Bentley for Australian Harper's Bazaar 08.
Yeah, for me being 25 is some sort of a milestone, hey it's a quarter of a century... Anyways, it also makes me feel "pushed" into a different level of generation. I'm not a girl anymore, but calling myself a woman sounds quite weird, since I'm such a girly girl inside. I feel like a little girl walking on mommy's stilettos. Want to be "the woman" but not sure that I'm ready for it. But ready or not, it is the fact that I must walk on, and I think it won't be as hard as I thought.
Btw, my 25th birthday will also be my living-in-Singapore 1st anniversary! Great isn't it? I've been spending one year living on my own, making a living for myself, struggling on my own. This has been such an amazing journey. I learned so much from this one year. And you know what, come to think about it, actually this year has actually made me a woman. Might not be a true woman, but at least I'm on the way to be one :)
Photographed by Mark Seliger for Vogue Italia September 2009